Pyar, Ishk or Mohbbt… yahan jo aksar sunne ko milte hain wo yahi shabad hai na…. hmmm..? sahi kah rahi hu na… to theek hai sabhi kuch na kuch likhte hain.. batate hain… apne bare mein.. Pyar k bare mein..ya fir apne pyar k bare mein… hai na.. to jab sabhi kuch na kuch farmate hain to main pichhe kyu rahu bhyi…. Theek hai na… aaj humne b socha hai kuch kahenge aap sab se…. waise main aati rahti hu aksar yahan pe… cmmts, batein sab kuch share karti hu …. Aap hi mein se ek hu main b…… jo baat aaj main aap sab se share karna chahti hu aap sab ki tarah meri life ka ek kissa hai… aap story b kah sakte ho lakin mere liye ye sirf ek “Kissa” hai….isse badhke or kuch b nahi…
To chaliye shuru karti hu…
Baat hai Jan-5,2012 ki time subah 8:30 kareeb….. main Institute jane k liye taiyaar ho rahi thi.. (actually main us waqt apni study k sath sath as a Faculty usi institute mein job b kr rahi thi)… Didi ne thora gusse se mujhe jaise chaitawni dete huye bola… Tu us Dj se baat karni band karde.. dimag kharab kr rakkha hai usne tera.. padhai pe dhayan de..eaxm aane wale hain tere… or b 2-4 chaar suna dali didi ne mujhe…(B’coz main usey isi naam se bulati thi..Dj…nd yahan b main uska or apna full name nahi bata sakti..aap samajh sakte hain..kyu).. mera subah-2 mood kharaab ho gya.. main rone lagi.. jaise taise tayaar hui..or Insitute k liye ravana hogi.. sare raaste najane kaise khud ko sambhala.. or institute pahunchi… pahunchte hi Dj ko msg kiya.. ek tarh se Shikayat kr dali usse ki aaj tuamari wajah se najane didi ne mujhe kya kya suna dala… Dupahar tak classes attend karne ki wajah se usse baat na ho pai..or jab hui to gusse mein usne b ye bol dala k paglon se baat karne ka usey b shok ni hai…“Paagal”…. shayad sahi naam diya tha usne mujhe us waqt..
Khair .. Akhir ye Dj hai kon..? kya rishta tha mera isse ki meri didi ne aisa sab bola… yahi soch rahe ho na aap sabh….. chaliye bataye deti hu…. Dj mera FB frnd tha.. Basically main Punjab se hu .. baat hai July 2011 ki jab main or Dj Fb pe frnds bane the.. Aapko to pata hai na ye “Internet ki Dunia..Bilkul Sapno ki Dunia jaisi…” Hum j bhool jate hain ki humare saamne wala real life mein kaisa hai.. bas uske sath text k zariye badhne wale rishte ko nibhana shuru kr dete hain.. aisa hi maine b kiya.. or b frnds the mere Dj k ilawa.. lakin usne jitne mazedaar pal mujhe diye hain.. utne shayad kisi or ne na diye ho.. Khas frnd..kamli ..kamlo.. aise bol bol k najane konsa rishta bana rakha tha usne mere sath… jitni der sath mein raha kabhi mahsus hi ni hui uski Ehmiyat.. insitute mein jab time mile usse chat karna.. ghar jakar bas unhi baton or khayalon mein jeena..bas yahi kaam rah gya tha mere paas..kabhi kabaar didi se koi baat share karti to wo jyada Fb use na karne ki salaah dekar tok deti..shayad wo sahi thi apni jagah.. or iska asar didi ko dikhne b laga tha.. main khoi-khoi rahti..akele khudse batein karna or muskurana.. koi awaaz lagae to sunai na dena.. ye sab didi notice karne lagi thi… baat tab bigdi jab didi ne Fb join kr liya or Dj se baat ki..j baat Dj se unhone Chhupai k wo meri sis hain.. Dj b muh fatt tha.. wo sab bol dala jo shayad mere se b na kah pata kabhi.. kya karta miane apni image hi strict bana rakhi thi uske saamne ki wo shayad kabhi kah hi na pata..mujhe un dono k beech mein hui baton ka pata chala.. yahi baat didi ko shayad dra rahi thi ki unki chhoti bahan kahin aisi baton se behak na jaye.. unhone aisa farmaan suna dala.. Dj se baat na karne wala.. Isi wajah se us din (5Jan’12) se maine Dj se baat karni band kr di… lakin baat hi band ki.. apne khayalo ko kaise rokti.. bimari meri continue rahi.. balki badhne lagi..wahi.. gum-sum rahna.. muskurana..akele batein karna.. Agar in short j kahun k main agar muskura rahi hu to wajah wo tha..or agar kabh akele mein ro rahi hu to b…wajah wo hi tha.. tha kya wo.. na use dekha tha kabhi..or na hi suna.. bas uske or mere beech mein huye wohi “text msgs”.. bas wohi sab se itna sab…. main apni us halat.. un feelings ko naam na
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