May I propose you?

Pehli baar jb usne msg kiya social website pe hi me bhi borr ho rhi thi mene reply kiya hello or usne sidha yhi swal kiya may I propose you? Pehle to mene socha k ye kesa ldka h sidha propose krne ki baat kr rha h pr dheere dheere hm bhot ache frnds ban gye the. Ek dusre se bhot sari batein krne lge the uski koi gf nai thi or mera bhi koi bf nahi tha..me Ahmedabad pdai krne k liye aa gai or vo pehle se yhi tha fir hm pehli baat mile..fir dheere dheerw roj milne lage.vo bolta tha k mee kisi ko gf bnata hi nahi hu muje ye sb psnd hi nahi h..or muje bhi in sb lfdo me nai pdna tha to hmari achi dosti thi..pr anish  sb ldkiyo k sath flirt krta rehta tha mere samne bhi ldkiyo k sath flirt tha.meri ek room mate thi uske sath bhi vo flirt krta tha bt me janti thi k vo achi ldki nai h to me use mna krti thi pr vo manta nai tha..muje uske liye feelings thi pr use nai psand tha to me btati nai thi use.. pr meri room mate k sath uska jyada ghumna muje akele chod dena ye sb se bhot taklef
hoti thi to mene use bta diya k me use psand krti hu .usne mna kr diya k hm sirf frnds h or kuch nai to tu pls esa kuch mt sochna as a frnd me tujse bhot pyar krta hu pr age kuch nai..mene meri sari limits cross kr di usne jo bhi manga mene diya uske liye sb kuch kiya.vo bhi mujse bhot pyar krta tha pr btata nai tha jb vo drink krta tha tb btata tha k mere pass bhot paise aa jaye fir tuje uda jaunga . Ese hi dosti chlti rhi or kbhi jgda kbhi pyar chlta rha khali naam dosti ka tha baki hm ek hi jaan the..uskI pdai puri ho gai vo ghr chla gya..mere ghr se riste aane lge or use btane lgi k tu ha bol de vrna meri shadi ho jayegi..pr vo nai manta tha.ek din jha se mera rista aaya tha uski frnd req aai muje or mummy ne bola baat krne ko to me usse baat krne lagi.vo ldka bhot acha h navy me h uska naam kishan hai..tb anish me muje propose kiya or shadi k liye ha bol di.or reason diya k tere liye mene shadi k liye ha boli h tuje khushi dene k liye me tujse pyar nai krta pr shadi kr
k tuje khushi dena chahta hu.iski wjh se hmare beech bhot jgde hone lge.pehle se jyada jgde hote h ek din bhi ache se baat nai hoti thi.or kishan bhot care krta tha bhot acha ldka tha.me hmesha uske sah ulti sidhi batein krti thi or mere bare me sb bakwass bolti thi taki vo mna kr de pr vo mujse pyar krne lga or usne muje bol diya k vo mujse pyar krne lga h.mene use anish k bare me sb bta diya k mene sari limits cross kr di h or me anish k sath hu.anish mera frnd h vo pehle se janta tha or muje bolta bhi tha k ye ldka muje psnd nai h pr me bolti k acha ldka h.jb bhi anish ka or mera jgda hota tha vo solve krvata tha.or muje bolta k mere pass chli aa anish shi ldka nai h tere liye..pr me nai manti thi.aj bhi vo bol rha h k anish ko chod de mere pass aa me tera past kbhi yaad aane nai dunga hm nyi life start krenge.or anish bhi ab mujse pyar krne lga h pr ek hi shart pr ki me uski har baat manu or koi bhi jgda ho to me sorry bolu or me let go.or kishan meri har ek galti bhula
ne k liye ready h..frnds help kro k me kya kru? Me anish se bhot pyar krti hu pr usko meri fikr nai h.meroti hu bhot request krti hu ache se rehne ko pr vo bhot gussa krta h or shak krta h k tu kishan se baat krti h tu cheap ldki h tu gaav ki h tuje kuch pta nqi chlta or bhi bhot kuch.pls help kro k muje kya krna chaiye.